Killer Jewels

Today

Erin — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 02:04:17 +0000

This would be a good day to you,
if I told you about it.

I can’t.

The numbers prove
that I’m lying.
Right?

Today is a good day—
normal, even.
I’m fine.

Until tomorrow,
and the next,
when I’ll need
to compensate
for today—

a good day.

Tall Order

Erin — Sat, 26 Mar 2011 03:08:40 +0000

the Starbucks on the corner
can enjoy my business as
I substitute its products
of liquid, caffeinated state
for more substantial choices.

I don’t need to chew.

and I don’t need you
	(or anyone, really),
even though you’re the influence
on my venture to try—

to drink this black,
	in the first place,
but also to try
to get a hold of myself—

but all I have to hold
is twelve ounces
of coffee.

Whipped

Erin — Sat, 26 Mar 2011 03:07:34 +0000

70.
accidental, unwanted,
but you should’ve checked.
your failure.

good. you’ve stopped.
you parted ways
from that forbidden menace.
but don’t give in
to that temptation—
you can’t go back
and make it right.

you don’t deserve it.

so stay put; you’ve failed.
and remember, you can’t
have any more today.

Control

Erin — Sat, 26 Mar 2011 03:06:12 +0000

calm. calm. don’t say a word—
your attitude is insignificant,
and you are expected
to play nicely.

turmoil, thunder crashing,
alarms sound—
what the hell is she doing?
is she fucking crazy?
doesn’t she realize—

of course not.
you’re insane, or not really,
because you were fucking kidding,
you can’t have a problem.
no. of course not.

behave yourself.
you’re in control.

don’t say a word.
your discipline
will prove
your strength.

Know Me

Erin — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 14:51:34 +0000

perception versus conception:
have I projected something to see
that allows but one construction
of my identity?

everyone—
even those I’ve blatantly refuted—
views me the same.

it hurts,
and I’m tired.

I’d love to say,
Screw everyone else,
but, my dear,
I’m afraid.

so there’s a misconception of you, too,
and perhaps it sucks more
to be unapproachable,
and arrogant.

I never saw you that way—
find it hard to believe, actually.

That’s because you know me.

yeah,
and I’m glad I do.
I’m glad you’ve let me.

and I’m glad
you’re not disappointed
that I’m not who you thought.